It feels like I was abandoned and betrayed.
It feels like I am cheating, because I don't need some thing but when it leaves me I feel jaundice.
It feels like I'm speechless and useless.
It feels like I'm spineless 'cause I can't force myself to do or not to do something.
It feels like I am dumb and thick.
It feels like I'm already 60 years-old despite I'm just 17. I'm tired of living in place where nothing's changing and nothing's happening.
It feels like I really know nothing pwoperly and completely, only some useless pieces. It makes me feel even more dumb.
It feels like I have some power but it turns out that it's not.
It feels like thou art kidding me, but I'm not sure if it's truth.
It feels like I am a coward.